My routine blood work has put my little world into a frenzy this past week. My CEA marker went from 3.4 to 6.1. When I saw the results in my online portal, I knew it was a big deal. My CEA has always been high (ideally it would be under 2.5) but they just want it steady. And not to double.

Queue scheduling a PET Scan and bringing cancer to the forefront of my mind and our lives.

Logistically, Scan went well and kids were taken of care of, leaving one less thing for me to worry about. Now we wait.

Nikki commentary:

When at the cancer center, I’m always reminded how lucky I am to be surrounded by youth in my daily life. Kids, mothers, teachers, soccer coaches and baseball dads. The cancer center is a somber place with clear evidence of a illness.

While I was there yesterday, I just had this screaming in my head, you don’t belong here. And this morning in my pure barre exercise class, with the effort and pain endured to make me physically stronger, my brain screamed, you belong here!!

I’ve taken it upon myself to introduce my workout buddy to new music. Thankfully, due to the influence of my husband and in laws, Jason and Abigail, there’s a lot of Indie rock and chill music, think LCD soundsystem, real estate, Beirut, spoon, but also introducing some oldies but goodies. Radiohead!! I mean… so for today’s post. Take a listen to Creep by Radiohead.

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