June 23, 2016

he is here!!  Our baby boy has arrived! After much anticipation, we have a healthy  baby boy!

We spent the week with family, momma Marie and Steve and Rose, playing the waiting game and trying to do as much as possible with Jeffrey and Cecilia. 

And then it was baby day. My last two births were overnight, so it was nice to have him early afternoon, coming to the hospital after a nights rest. 

The week(s) leading up to his arrival have been overwhelming. With the understanding of how our family dynamic will change – the ever present mom guilt of not being as available to the older kids –  and knowing how far we have come from when we found out about him. 

The understanding of what’s next for my health journey…a CT scan scheduled for early August, just 6 weeks away, to check for the presence of cancer. If it’s clear, I get my power port out!! If it’s not, we take a closer look, more test.

A lot of tears and crazy lady emotions, I am now feeling grounded and know our family it right where it belongs.

Nikki commentary:

Scott was out of town a few weeks ago and we had a bad thunder storm come through after bedtime. Cecilia woke up crying and I went in to rock her. I decided I would just rock her until the storm passed. And then I realized, I had no idea how long it was supposed to storm. 

I feel like my life recently has been lived in this scenario. Waiting for the storm to pass – waiting to get through newborn stage, chemo, being pregnant, and again, just wanting to meet our new baby boy.

The night before Elliott arrived it stormed all night. It just felt appropriate that it was a foggy, stormy morning when I was in labor with him. 

I’m hoping to start today as the new beginning of our next chapter. No more waiting out storms. Just living life and embracing the craziness that is ahead.   
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