April 10,2016
Today, my baby girl turned 2 years old!! Along with celebrating Miss Cecilia, we also reached a milestone of Jeffrey being in a new room, in a big boy bed and officially potty trained. And with all these fun milestones, I am reminded of why I think about cancer every day. 

Scott has mentioned that our kids are “why we fight” and he is right. 5 years ago, I thought if I was told I was sick, I would quit my job and travel the world. But what I have come to realize is I’m living the life that I want to be living. I want to sing happy birthday to my kids (for the next 40 years!), I want to read to them at night before bed (and be waiting up for them when they get home when they get older) and I want to lose my patience because they don’t listen to a word we say and I swear they are spoiled rotten! (Which I hope is always!)

And little does Scott know is that he is also a big reason of why I fight. I want to kiss him before he goes to work in the morning and hug him before he goes to bed at night. And I want to curse him under my breathe when I’m frustrated as hell.

Life has a funny way of making you appreciate what you already have. And more importantly, adapting your mind set to what matters. In my opinion, you can’t live everyday in a “new lease on life way” because sometimes the pressures are too much and life gets you down. But as long as you can see the big picture, I think it helps get through the day-to-day.
Nikki commentary:
I have always prayed and we are teaching our children to pray. The main topic is the idea of “thanks” in our Thank You, Jesus song that I made up for the kids to sing. we also pray for others, family, friends and those who are fighting battles know nothing about.

When I say I think about cancer everyday, it’s because I honestly do. To make sure that it knows I haven’t lost sight of it and that I know I’m not in control of how this all ends.  But more importantly, I pray to God to keep me and my family healthy and thank Him for this amazing life.
  

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