September 25

have you ever put so much pressure On a  single event? But in reality, there was so much more to be celebrated?

I had the pleasure of driving my niece, Lynn, to the church on her wedding day. I told her,”Lynn, today is the first day of the rest of our lives.”

It was a beautiful day, filled with laughter, tears and a great sense of celebration. I had a moment before Mass started where I started to cry and this led to my sister, Angie, crying. So we snuck to the room to calm down. I haven’t cried a lot or I would even say, AT ALL, through out the last 6 months. My eyes burning was probably a big reason.  But I have been so focused on finishing chemo, there wasn’t time to cry.  And what was crying go to do for me in the past. 

But in this moment I had a sense of relief and reflection of eveything that had happened and I was overwhelmed with emotion. I felt sad, happy, scared and excited. We had to explain to my 8 yr old niece that you can cry because you are happy.  I also made a point to get it together because I didn’t want to tap into all of this on Lynn’s wedding day.  

So we got it together and the last one of our Fab 4 (established at Lynn’s birth) walked down the aisle and we celebrated and prayed for a happy and healthy marriage. 

We also danced!!  And it felt so damn good!!
   
    

    

    
   
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