July 4

Well, I should be writing about a few days off until I go back on Tuesday, but I have two more sets today. (Enter my 2 years old pouty’s face here)

I feel like a broken record to write that it’s been a rough go, but I would be lying if I said it was easy.  

We did make the road trip to Ohio to visit Scott’s brother, Jason, and his family and their new baby. It was nice to take advantage of the long weekend to travel. We had a nice visit and it worked out for me that they have a newborn. Without a lot of big plans, it allowed me to rest and sit. It sucks but I just generally feel better laying down. 

We missed the Dust family lake get together, but probably for the best. As they were doing the usual “forgot this, pick up on your way out here” texts, I was laying in bed in Ohio. 

But the biggest thing I have been reflecting on is that this is round 6. 6 down and 6 to go. And how crazy, hard this battle has been.  I’m encouraged by the continued support of family and friends. The constant support and prayers is amazing,

I am also reminded that I have 6 more rounds to go, and I wonder if i can do it.  I’m tired. I’m sick. And as my brother Jeff said, “I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.” 

The good news is (there is always good news in a Nikki message) that I may not feel strong but I am pissed and being pissed helps light fire to keep me going and keep fighting.

Nikki commentary: today’s post title is inspired by Jackson Browne’s song Running on Empty. Give it a listen if you have a minute or two. 

  

The kids wanted to play Ring around the Rosie.  So I suggested after a couple rounds, they just circle around me. 
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