Wednesday, April 29: Today, I start round 2 of my 7 days of chemo. I was fortunate to have 4-5 days of feeling good and like myself. I felt so good that I got myself so worked up and anxious about starting again, that I made myself physically ill.  Maybe I thought that I wouldn’t have to take anymore chemo pills if I was sick.

But I got down my morning pills and off to infusion I went.  Steve, Rose and Ron came to the house to watch the kids.  Jeffrey knew I was leaving so it was quite the ordeal to get him calmed down.  

Kristin brought me.  We use to work together so it was nice to catch up and spend the day together. Although I was trying to convince her that we should head south to the beach – instead of the Cancer Center.  She said she would bring me to the beach “next time.”

Labs and doctor appt went good. He prescribed an anti anxiety med to treat me making myself sick.  He said, anxiety  induced nausea/diarrhea  is a real thing. 

Later  in the afternoon, Kristin handed the baton off to Malinda.  And we watched Ellen and I found that listening to music and covering my face helped me nap during infusion.

The evening was terrible.  I could barely force myself to eat a banana but knew I needed something in my stomach. I knew the physical pain was inevitable but when you are in it, it’s hard to accept.
Nikki commentary: Be brave.  I am brave. 

“I said, and said, and said those words. I said them. But I lied them.” What Was I scared of. Dr. Seuss. (Thanks Renee for that book! A new momma and Jeffrey favorite.) 

Lyndsay gave me the best shirt to wear to chemo! And on off days too! 

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