Tuesday, March 24
I called the dr to schedule a follow appt and I also left a voicemail for the nurse, requesting the pathology results from the surgery.
At 11:00am, Dr. Brabbee returned my call and I took the call from my bedroom. He said in summary, that the cancer was more advanced than we had expected and that I would have to have chemo. He had removed 67 lymph nodes and only 1 was positive. It was an early stage 3. We would discuss more at our appt and get more information after meeting with an oncogist.
Nikki Commentary: This was the moment when I heard the C word. This was when it sunk in and I really, finally, started processing that all of this was real. This was when I realized, “Fuck, I have cancer!”
And this was when I shut down…
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You are not alone, girlie! Many people are praying for you and are ready to help whenever you need it. And I truly believe God is always with us. I KNOW without a shadow of a doubt that He won’t let you walk this road alone. You are loved by so many. You are strong. You are brave. This is just a bump (ok a freakin’ mountain) in the road, but you WILL make it through. I have faith in God and in you. Love you, girlie!
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