Thanksgiving, 2015

I told my mom that I was pregnant with Cecilia when I was 4-5 weeks pregnant. And I told her not to tell anyone. I told my family over Labor Day (around 8 weeks) to which a few of my siblings responded, yeah, we knew!  To which my mother responded, “I didn’t tell anyone. I only told Cindy, Jeff and Kevin.” 3 of my 6 siblings. And Angie knew the day I found out. 

My mother also told me, you will not hurt my feelings if you do not tell me something, because I can not keep a secret. 

So with that in mind, it was important to me not to share my news over Thanksgiving. I wasn’t in a good place yet and I wanted to meet with the specialist before spreading the word. I also didn’t want to worry anyone. So, Scott and I made it our goal to keep the news to ourselves until Chritmas. I would be 13 weeks by then and have more information to share. 

And now every person knows to question a woman who isn’t drinking if she is pregnant, but lucky for me, everyone knew that chemo was really hard on my liver and I wasn’t drinking anyways. Who ever knew that would be good advice for more than one reason!

So, we came in, had a great family visit with some well planned outfits on my part to hide my bump. Yes, the body shows it a lot sooner with #3. Or that’s my excuse😉 and we departed with our news concealed and our focus on December 3. Our appt with the OB specialist.

Now, that doesn’t mean I can keep a secret. Because I had already reached out to my group of girlfriends for support. I find that I can keep other people’s secrets but when it comes to me, I’m an open book.
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