I am waiting to have my labs and port flushed at my new cancer center office.  The room they use for labs is the same room for infusions.  It feels like a chemo room. 

I shouldn’t complain. I haven’t had my port flushed since October 22.  The labs are the key to monitoring my CEA levels, a blood test that detects if cancer is growing in my body. 

If it is high, it doesn’t mean that cancer is back. It would just mean we would need to take a closer look through other procedures.  So, let’s hope this bad boy is under 5.  I’ll keep you posted!

Nikki commentary: I was laying in bed last night and was worrying about my cancer coming back. I guess I feel with the new year around the corner, it’s something I can put behind me but I know I can’t. 

I see a lot of doctors and i know they are concerned that it will come back. And that should be their concern, that’s their job to be proactive and catch it early. 

What I need to do, is stop it from becoming a paralyzing fear and delaying how I live my life. Most importantly, I need to live. Live every day to the fullest and appreciate the life I have been so blessed to have. 

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