Friday, August 14

Knowledge is power.  After an excruciating silent 26 hours from the ultrasound,I finally heard from the nurse to say the ultrasound of my liver came back normal.  I just happened to be in the lobby of the dr office, waiting to meet with a dr about Lynch Syndrome testing. 

I was so relieved and overwhelmed, I cried to a different nurse taking my vitals and getting me checked in.  I think she empathized with me…

After sitting in a quiet dr office for 30 mins, I finally turned on my music and read Vanity Fair. Nothing prepares you for these appts, especially when you don’t know what’s in store. basically, if I have lynch syndrome, the chances of getting other cancers are very high.  We find out in 3-4 weeks. But so far, all signs (my tumor, my age, family history) all points to it being positive.  There was a lot that happened at this appt and I’m not ready to write about it…will share more soon or when we know the results.

Nikki commentary: The kids are down for their nap. I usually rest on the couch but today I’m crawling into bed. I’m tired. I’m exhausted. And feeling overwhelmed with the fight.