The first night of chemo was the first time I cried to Scott, questioning “why me?” I didn’t cry long and I didn’t ask more then once.  

Nikki Commentarty: Shellie and I were texting and she asked how I was feeling.  I said “I feel like shit but I will be ok.” And she responded, “you don’t have to be ok.” 

I think it is important for me to remember that I don’t always have to be strong throughout this battle.  There will good days, bad days, and a lot of crappy days. 

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